If there is one thing I hate, it's speaking in front of people. I. Can't. Do. It. And I don't think I ever will be. My hands start to shake, my face gets red, I stutter and can't get my words out right so I look like a downright retard. Sometimes, I'll even get to the point where I cry--and I don't particularly like doing that in front of people either.

It's really embarrassing and it's something that really annoys and bothers me. But it's not like I can really do anything to fix it. Sure, I can practice talking in front of people and sure, I will have to do many different times in my life, but I'll honestly tell you I don't believe I'll get much better.

What really puts me over the edge is if what I'm talking about is personal. For example, my youth group at my church is going on a mission trip to New York to do construction work and to be eligible to go, you have to meet certain requirements. One of them is you have to give your testimony. Not a big deal right?

But if you're put on the spot, in front of thirty people, and you're told that you have to talk about something very personal, that is something completely different. So being the lucky duck I am, I had to off the top of my head come up with my testimony in front of 30 people, and I believe I already mentioned I don't talk in front of people very well. To simply put it, it didn't go well.

To top it all off though, one of our youth leaders wanted us to critique other people when they're finished. I'm sorry, but that is just ridiculous. You don't criticize and critique somebody's testimony. It's like saying, "Your life story sucks. Get a new one." I don't think so. That is just something that you do not critique. Thankfully though, nobody critiqued mine, (I'm sure the main reason is they all took pity on little ol' me).  All in all, it was not a fun night, and I didn't even stay for church. One of my friends in college gave me a ride home.

I think I'm about the happiest person in the world at the moment. I could be on Cloud 9 for all I care because, I just got tickets to the Rascal Flatts concert. OH YEAH! :D

Ok, so I really got them last night, but I didn't blog about it 'til today. xD
To clear things up a bit, Rascal Flatts is my favorite band in the whole wide universe, simply saying. I absolutely love them. They have been to my city three times now, and I have not been able to attend the concert because each time I've been busy.

I was not going to miss them for the fourth time. And I'm not going to. ;D
The tickets were $67 which is a fairly good price, and I was really happy about that. But of course there was like a $10 parking fee, $8 shipping fee, and then the rest was a facility fee. So it all came out to $90.70. For real? I think that's a bit ridiculous to have to pay so much extra, but I am not going to complain further because I'm too happy. xD

So, my parents are going to pay for half of it for my birthday [two days baby! two days!] and I'll pay for the other half. I'm also going to be going with a good college friend of mine, and if it weren't for her, I wouldn't be going at all. So, she's my hero. <3

The concert is June 5th, so only 61 more days! :D

[OH YEAH! Rascal Flatts is performing tonight at the ACM awards as well as presenting an award. They're also nominated for top vocal group. WOOT WOOT!]

Forgot to mention: new layout! I thought since it was a new month, a new layout would be nice. ^^ Happy April!

Spring break is finally here. WOO! :D

So, Being the unproductive person I am, I decided to do something productive. And since I haven't really spent a whole lot of time with my grandpa lately, I decided to spend the day with him, and it was worth it. I forget how much fun it is to spend with him, minus his complaining. xD

My grandpa is 83 years old, and can still walk at least 2 miles every day. Which in fact he does--at the mall with his lady friend. xD Still, it's beyond me how he does it. To my point, you don't know when someone is going to go, and if it comes to that, you don't want to be wishing that you had spent more time with them, or just taken the time to call. Plus I really love my grandpa, and it is fun to hang out with him.

So we went to Missouri Botanical Gardens today because 1.) we went there all the time when I was little and have a lot of memories there and 2.) he really likes that place. And I don't mind. After that he took me out to lunch to an Italian restaurant called Zia's. And then we were going to go to the Zoo, but we would have had to walk really far from the closest parking place and he didn't want to do that, so we didn't. It doesn't make sense coming from a man who walks 2 miles every morning, but whatever. ^^;

Another thing I haven't mentioned yet is that my grandpa likes to talk. ;D But I love it because he always talks about how it was when he was a kid and such, so I feel like I get to know him more, and sometimes he just needs someone that will listen to him.

Even though I didn't get to sleep in, and mind you I DO like my sleep, it was a good day. :]

I am so mad/frustrated/humiliated/disappointed/ticked off at the moment. I don’t know how else to say it.

I was a part of an ensemble for a contest and we performed today. We sang a relativley easy song, there wasn’t any impossible high notes to hit or rediculous words we had to memorize. It was only about 3 minutes long, that’s not to much to ask for is it? Apparently so.

Even though we were supposed to have six people in our group, we had five–two 1st sopranos, two 2nd sopranos, and one alto. Our alto didn’t even show up. We had to perform without her, which was horrible because our alto holds our 2nds together. There is a point in the song that the 2nds and the alto have a solo, per say, they didn’t even sing it because they didn’t know the words, so it was silent. Silent.

Our music director didn’t measure our music for the judge, so points were deducted from that, 3 of the girls sang the wrong verse at the wrong time, our alto wasn’t there, and we only performed one song because our choir director thought we weren’t ready for the other one–so we were disqualified. And it just went worse from there.

My friend called me and told me that our group got a 4, and the lowest you can get is a 5. And it sucks that a few people would just ruin the whole thing for the whole group. When I do something, I want to do it well. I don’t want to look like stupid in front of an audience.

When you take a part in a contest, or anything of this kind of sorts, you don’t just go in and expect everyone else to do all the work for you. You can’t just think along the lines of, “Oh, if I forget the words, no big deal, so-and-so will remember them!” Things like that just really tick me off.

Needless, to say, I am definatley picking a better group next year who will actually give there best for this and won’t set it at the bottom of their priority list.

Hey, after only a couple months over at Choseit.com, I decided to switch to a different website, so here we are! :D You'll have to bear with me until I get everything back to normal, but so far I really like it at Weebly. :]

Hopefully I'll be a bit more organized on this site, and I even already feel more organized. I think it's a bit more classy I guess you could say. And when they put those ads on the other site, that just tipped me over.

But, here we are! That blog was really kind of pointless... just saying. :]